105 SHADES OF BLACK

The following couple of weeks were strange, to say the least. Mr Santino and I had barely spoken about the pregnancy or anything related...

After waiting in suspense for a response, I gave up staring at my phone and went to take a shower. I was done for the night. The shock...

Almost a month on, and things were going well with Mr. Santino and I. It was early June, summer was upon us and I was excited to spend...

I’m not even sure if I told Mr. Santino I was coming over.. I honestly can’t remember.. but I do remember sitting in the car waiting for...

The week had me emotionally spent.. it had been long, it had been tough, and I thought about Baby Lily every day wondering if I had made...

Monday May 10th, 2021 – a day I will never forget! Ripe with excitement knowing I only had 4 days of work to get through before our epic...

By the last week of April 2021, my feelings were 100% back but Mr. Santino doesn’t know that, yet.. and given that Mr. Santino and I were...

Waking up the following morning was just like every other night we spent together. I woke up first and jumped in the shower then got...

As the days/weeks went on after that phone call, I wouldn’t say the communication was dead between Mr. Santino and I, but it was...

Opening the text from Mia with the screenshot attached was a shitty thing for me to have exerienced. I stared at the screenshot for...

Back again.. 105 Shades of Black is back.. back again ♥ I have missed you all wayyyy toooo much, and while my 1 year hiatus seems...

With the lines of communication now open between Mr. Santino and me, and me making a conscious effort to put no effort into the...

Being single and pouring back into myself felt amazing. I liked my new mindset and I liked how much self-care could do wonders for you if...

With Mr. Santino out of the picture, I really needed to take stock of my life and the shit storm that it had become. I knew before Mr....

So I’m back in Phoenix and things are going well with Mr. Santino. I was proud of the way we eventually learned how to communicate with...

I unknowingly was volun-told that I would be driving some of the crew to Vegas.. I guess I didn’t really care, but still, would have been...

I had a lot of thinking to do post-Pinetop about whether Mr. Santino was right for me. I really liked him, he had a lot of good qualities...

Things escalated with Mr. Santino and I pretty quickly. Before long, we were spending pretty much every night together and we spoke most...

I promised myself that I would not get ahead of myself with Mr. Santino. History showed that I was pretty quick to commit to potential...

The morning after my date with Mr. Santino saw me thinking about Mr. Santino all the time. It was weird. I don’t know why, but I couldn’t...